Something To Lose.Is this all I am to you?Just something to lose?Someone to hurt?To hit and abuse?Not physicallyFor that would leave marksNot even mentallyYou go straight for the heartLike a waterfall cascadingIt won't ever stopI'll be here still waitingOr so I once thoughtI can never fight this feelingBut I can't help that it's hereMaybe it'd be bestIf I could just disappear...
Questions.Questions.Nobody has the answersBut everybody has the Y’s.Speculations of a faultless green pasture,Based on a line of best fit that was drawn to lie.The solution is a sequence of random numbers and dates.In addition to a complicated sum of love, grief, fear and hate.Which form a unique equation that can never be revealed.It’s the only bit of ignorance that still remains concealed.Even though we may feel defenseless.The possibilities are endless.The opportunities are relentless.Opinions become senselessAnd still we lie restless.Attempting to solve the unsolvableAnd control the uncontrollable.To know the unknowable.Kela Lewis-Morin
The Price To Be AliveI never did look, so I never did question,Your riddled with guilt and unspoken confessions.Making the effort to push on mile after mile,Feeling your knife in my back all the while!I had always thought that you were a part of me!Now I can't stand the thought of you and I'll never be sorry.I still just can't believe I let you happen to me!The thoughts are so maddening and chip away at my sanity...When you told me I was nothing time itself seemed to have frozen,And when it finally thawed I found myself somehow more broken!The pain is so hard to stop; it keeps coming in stronger waves...I fell down from the very top and right into my open grave!And you saved me?! Just to break me again?!?!Why couldn't you let this go so this could finally end?!I'm so tired of all the thoughts and all the voices in my head!I hate the whispered words that should never have been said!You couldn't have really meant it when you wished that I was dead!I've fallen to the floor
I Ami am a mechaa liarof emotionsa fighterinsiderabiderof my own truthinsiderprovidera tigerthe one deep inside truthso loosethe proofthe one you thought you knewa champthe damnthe one that has to scrama framethe painthe melted dark rainthe shamethe gainthe one with words of bangthe one you love to breakfeeling away from youI am safe